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Am I In An Open Cell But Unable to Leave It?
This is all about trauma, change, and the reality of what comfort zones are.
Life is crazy. So much is happening out there, is it any wonder we’re all losing our minds?
Here’s my personal dilemma. My therapist and I have seen numerous ways that I’ve improved my life. Overall, I’m in a really good place. Yet, for some reason, I feel stuck.
The reason? Because somewhere in the back of my brain, I feel like I’m missing something. What is it? I’m missing the troubles. The problems. Issues with this, that, or the other thing that have always seemed to be ongoing in my life.
In other words, my life is stable, and I haven’t the foggiest idea what to do with that. It’s like I subconsciously need the challenges, the drama, the issues, and the troubles. Because without them I’m feeling oddly stuck.
What’s that all about?
Trauma is a thing
The truth is that I’ve spent most of my adult life in combat mode. I’ve fought depression. There have been many struggles finding and keeping jobs (and getting paid anywhere near what I’m worth). During most of my 20s and 30s, I moved through a lot of relationships and attempted to put my polyamorous, square-peg self into a…
