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Am I Lying to Myself?
I don’t think so — but it’s possible I am lying to myself.
The only person who can truly know me, in-depth, is me.
This is because there is nobody but me here inside of my head, heart, and soul.
No matter how much I connect with anyone else — in any way, shape, or form — I’m still the only one in here. The only person capable of getting at my motivations, recognizing my beliefs, values, and habits is me.
I know that to some people that seems awful lonely. But as I have worked to reconcile this over the years, I’ve gained massive insight into myself. I know myself better now than I ever have before.
How? By studying my subconscious, becoming more familiar and communicative with my conscious awareness, and using outside resources to learn more about how the subconscious and consciousness connect.
Yet despite this ongoing work — I still wonder. Am I lying to myself? Am I truly pursuing what I desire or just going through the motions?
Why am I questioning this?
For the past year-plus, I have been wholly focused on the pursuit of my writing.
To do this, I altered my approach and focus. Rather than just sit down and bang out the words when I had a…
