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Are You Feeling Worthless?
You are not worthless — you bring something to the table nobody else can.
I have been struggling with this notion for much of my life. The feeling that I am not worthwhile, that I contribute nothing of value to anyone else, and that I may even be a burden.
Some of this stems from my childhood. I am NOT blaming them here — because that serves no purpose — but to some degree, I was a burden on my parents growing up.
As far as I can tell, ALL children are a burden on their parents from time to time. Why? Because as a parent you have to accommodate them and make many sacrifices to raise them. This is why I did not choose to become a parent.
Anyhow, my parents divorced when I was 5 or so, and at the time this was not very common. My dad moved halfway across the country to pursue his dreams while my mom had to take a job to support my sister and I. Hence, we became burdens.
Even in a 2-parent home, kids can become burdens — but they are shielded from this for the most part. My sister and I weren’t.
Again — I don’t blame my parents because that was a long time ago. The point is that, as an adult, I never fully released this notion, either.
