Confidence is the Doorway I Need to Walk Through

Being confident is the key to the answers I seek in my life.

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I have a pretty good idea of how I desire for my life to look. The career path I wish to take, the ancillary bits attached to that, travel to be undertaken, and giving generously to causes I believe in as well as friends and family.

Before I started to really work on conscious reality creation through practicing mindfulness, I had a tendency to never quite get to the desired goal. Instead, I would stand at a crossroads between pathway options and hmmm and haw indecisively, then typically stay within the comfort zone I occupied at the time.

Now, as I am working more directly with consciously creating my reality, and actively pursuing my goal, it feels good and feels right. But there is still that stupid, nagging voice in the back of my head telling me I’m foolish to attempt this, and that I am neither worthy nor deserving.

Knowing that I am worthy and deserving is one thing. As I have been analyzing and trying to figure out how to silence those brain weasels, I believe I have uncovered one of my largest issues keeping me from achieving the goal.

Not to keep throwing more metaphors for this journey, but there is a particular doorway along my paths that I have tended not to walk through. That is confidence.

Why confidence?

Mindfulness is both more and less complicated than most people think. But to manifest the reality I desire to create, mindfulness is necessary. Being aware, in the now, of what I am thinking and what and how I am feeling will drive the intent behind the actions I take.

Sometimes it goes the other way, and actions will impact thoughts and feelings. While confidence is both a thought and a feeling, it actually goes even further than that. There is a definite physical aspect to being confident that can impact the mental and emotional aspects.

The physical aspects of confidence include, but are certainly not limited to:

· Posture. Sitting and standing tall exude confidence.

· Speech. Speaking clearly and concisely, without too many pauses or intonations of doubt and uncertainty.

· Handshakes. A firm handshake exudes confidence.

· Breathing deep. Shallow breathing comes across as nervous and uncertain. Deep breathing is confident.

· Stride. Walking with purpose and intent versus shuffling along.

All of these physical acts show confidence in your body and attitude. This, in turn, can and will open the confidence within your thoughts and feelings as well.

Acting with confidence, even if you are not entirely thinking and feeling confident, CAN make you more confident. It may seem counterintuitive and backward, but that doesn’t make it any less true.

Holding your head up high, walking tall, sitting up straight, and speaking with clarity and purpose radiates confidence. Even if you don’t truly feel it, these actions bring it forward and can then create it.

Why is this the doorway I need to pass through?

There are two particular issues that I have been having a difficult time resolving. The particular matters of self-doubt nag at me like the most stereotypical Jewish mother you could possibly imagine — multiplied times twenty when it comes to these two issues. In some respects, they are intertwined, but really they are two very different, divergent matters.

Weight loss and money. These two matters I cannot shift my mindset sufficiently to positivity towards. Deep-seated, long-held beliefs are holding me back, and drive that self-doubt.

It is one thing to be in the now, be aware of and take intentional actions on your thoughts and feelings, but what will help with these deeply buried beliefs? Confidence.

This requires me to do more than pay lip service to turning my mindset towards positivity and positive thoughts regarding money and weight loss. I need to be more confident. How I approach both, how I think about both needs to not just be shifted, but really reworked.

Confidence is strength. If I think, I have more than enough money, it’s a start. But it needs to be stronger.

I HAVE AN ABUNDANCE OF MONEY, stated confidently, is a better step. I need to keep my back straight, chin up, and breathe deeply into this thought.

All of the conscious reality creation I am working on needs to be done more confidently. Even a little bit of tentativeness can sabotage my work and ultimately my goals. It also can be really frustrating.

I know who I am and what I desire

These are the things I need to exude more confidence about in my thoughts, feelings, and intentional actions:

· Creativity is my passion

· I am a full-time writer

· Making abundant money comes easily to me

· I am worthy of losing weight and getting into better shape

· Conscious reality creation is mine to manifest

These are who I am. Yours probably look different.

When you are working to create the best you that you can be, confidence can take you there. Even if you are not feeling and thinking confident, you can alter your physicality to shift your thoughts, feelings, and overall mindset.

I see the doorway along my path that is confidence, and being confident is the key to the answers I seek in my life, so through it, I go.

Join me, won’t you?

You are worthy and deserving of using your mindfulness to find and/or create the reality in which you desire to live. When all is said and done you matter, and you can be confident in that.

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I am a practitioner of mindfulness, positivity, philosophy, & conscious reality creation. I love to inspire, open minds, & entertain.

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