For a long time now I have felt that I am at the cusp of getting from “almost there” to “there.” As in nearing the goal versus reaching it.
That’s not entirely correct, though. More than the goal itself, what I am striving to find is being “there” on the path I have chosen and making my living through it. For me, that’s writing and recording audiobooks full time. As in, specifically, making a living wage from this.
There are greater goals past this, but this one is the path I wish to be traveling on. I am taking this path right now, but it’s not quite producing the fruit I am attempting to cultivate.
Currently, I am working on writing full-time. This includes composing two articles per day, as well as doing work on other projects like my sci-fi series. Additionally, I have been hired to record audiobooks for another, and they want me to continue doing more.
Am I there yet? No. Why? Because while I am doing what I desire to do, I am not yet on the precise path I seek to be upon from it. The volume is at 6 and I want to turn it up to 11.
Or to be precise, it’s good to get paid but I should like to be paid better.
A hop, skip, and a jump away
In southern New Jersey, there are a pair of interstate highways that, for a while, run parallel to one another. The New Jersey Turnpike and I-295 are side-by-side, both multi-lane highways, separated at times by maybe a hundred yards or less.
From a certain point at their northern end, both roads will lead to the same destinations. On the one you pay a toll and have limited exists, the other you pay no toll and have more exits. Yet if you were going from one point both roads reach to another the travel time difference could potentially be considerable for many factors.
Which is better? It depends on the time of day and/or specific destinations you are trying to reach. Also, whether you want to avoid paying the toll.
Metaphorically, which road do I desire to be on? The one that is straighter with fewer exits or the curvier with more options? Am I willing to pay the tolls? Which of these paths is the ideal?
The answer is variable. Some days one is better than the other. But when you are on the Turnpike at that point where you can see I-295, and you are at a dead stop while they are flying along at normal speed, you know which you would rather be on.
Right now I am on the road, but I’m stuck in traffic and crawling. Just a short way away is the road I desire to be on, the same path to the same destination…and I have no idea how to get there.
I am almost there — but not there yet.
How do you get across?
The bigger issue I am facing right now is figuring out how to get from being “almost there” to “there.” A part of the problem with this is that when you are charting new territory you have never been to before, how tends to be a mystery.
Just like the historical explorers blazing new trails, at times you reach a river or a gorge. How do you get across it? Where is the bridge, zip line, downed tree, or tunnel? Can you ford the river or swim across safely? Is it possible to climb down the edge of the gorge, get across, and then climb back up?
I am almost there — “there” is across that river. How do I make my way across? If I cannot cross here, where? That’s part of the challenge of getting from “almost there” to “there.”
I know that there is a way across. In especial because I have seen others do it. It is not necessarily up to me to invent the how, but to learn what those who have gone before me have done. With that, I can determine what will and won’t work for me on my journey.
One of my personal challenges in this process is that I have reached the point where I have no choice but to get uncomfortable. What does that mean? It means I have to leave my comfort zone.
How do I leave my comfort zone? That’s the ultimate question. I know there are ways to do this, but I am not sure just what they are or how to go about them.
What I do know is that I have to overcome my fears about the unfamiliar, the “what-if” scenarios, the unknown, and downsides. Life is perfectly imperfect, so there is no good way to know what consequences a leap of faith will present.
But, what I do know is this: I am supported along this path. The unknown is not a death-drop, and I will ultimately survive the fall largely unscathed. I will just be wiser for the wear.
I can see “there” and I am “almost there” in the here-and-now. I can nearly reach it, I just have to take action and use mindfulness to make it so.
It is impossible for me to deny that I’m scared. But I know that this experience, being “almost there,” thus far, has been incredible. If being “almost there” is this good, then I am pretty sure getting “there” is going to be fantastic.
Deep breath. Center. Get grounded. The discomfort is temporary, and I have experienced and survived it — and far worse — before.
I can do this. “Almost there” is not “there” yet. It is time for me to be “there,” now.
Because I know that I am worthy, deserving, and that I matter, I also know that I can do this. Thank you for your support.
You are worthy and deserving of using your mindfulness to find and/or create the reality in which you desire to live. When all is said and done you matter, you can be “there” now, too.