Does Your Get-Up-And-Go Feel Like It Got-Up-And-Went?
What you feel is valid, and what you do with it is your choice.
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For reasons I cannot put my finger on, I have been feeling off all week.
I am perfectly fine, physically. No more stiff or sore than usual. But my mental, emotional, and/or spiritual health is off.
Why? Some of this I can answer. But other elements I am not sure of.
Overall, I feel as if my get-up-and-go has got-up-and-went. I feel drained, disconnected, and for lack of a better explanation, off.
I know that pinpointing the why is not going to be an instantaneous process. But it’s definitely in my best interest to work with this.
To start, I must recognize and acknowledge that this feeling, whatever it is and wherever it comes from, is perfectly valid. One recognized and acknowledged, what I do with this is my choice.
Mental, emotional, and spiritual health
This issue is directly connected to my mental, emotional, and spiritual health.
There are several factors at play here that are directly impacting me mentally and emotionally. Presently, I am feeling frustrated by my finances, and that is leading to a blend of feelings that tie into guilt and shame.
Why guilt and shame? Because I question if I am doing enough. It’s a two-part perception issue. Do I feel that I am doing enough — and how do other people see me and what I am and am not doing? Am I putting all the effort I can and should be into my work, whether my part-time gig, freelance, or my writing and editing?
There is no singular answer, FYI, because there is no bar for the measure of enough, too little, or even too much. No bad, save what I believe is expected of me by others.
When it comes to work and deadlines, that’s one thing. That is quantifiable because if there is an expectation to be met for which I get paid, that’s that.
When it comes to the more abstract, though, only I know the answer — if there is one. Still, that doesn’t mean it’s wholly logical or even easily worked out.
