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How Are You Choosing Your Life Stories?
What do you want to be when you grow up?
I spent a long, long time working on finding the answer to that question. Got a college degree that I very quickly realized I wasn’t going to make use of. Didn’t go anywhere with my college minors. Nope, instead I spent almost two decades floating around, letting life drag me along the various currents I encountered.
For a long time I believed that it didn’t entirely matter what I wanted when I grew up. There were expectations, obligations, and other factors that went into how I perceived one would be an adult. A lot of it didn’t look too fun, nor very desirable. But I accepted the concept, and rolled with it.
Over the years, I always felt like there was something missing. This would develop into me bouncing between relationships, bouncing from job to job, and never settling into one place, per se, for more than a decade at a time. Even into my thirties, I still didn’t feel as if I was a grown-up, nor could I answer the question about what I wanted to be.
It is all too easy to identify yourself by your job, your relationship, your group of friends, or what-have-you. This provides a down comforter you snuggle under when you don’t really want to dig too deep into the minute details of your existence.
