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How Do I Balance My Need to Help with What I Can Actually Do?
I need to recognize and accept what I do, don’t, and can’t control.
I’m trying to wrap my head around my own thoughts. Between what’s in my head and the information I take in from the world without, there’s a lot there to process.
Lately, I’ve been feeling an increasing sense of disconnect. It’s like I’m present, doing my thing, but also drifting. Why? Because the state of the collective consciousness is so scattered and so uncertain, it’s hard to ignore when it’s practically screaming.
No matter how much I limit my intake of the various news from the world without, it’s still there. And I know there’s not a fucking thing I can do about it.
All I can do is strive to live my own life to the best of my ability. I know that I’m incredibly fortunate on multiple levels and work hard not to take that for granted. That, unfortunately, comes with a degree of guilt and shame.
Why? Because my struggles are entirely intangible and in my head. I know that they’re no less valid than those who have physical and tangible struggles. But I still feel bad when I see others I care about enduring more concrete challenges.
