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How Do I Do Better At Not Being My Own Greatest Obstacle?
When I know I’m my greatest obstacle, what do I do to get out of my own way?
Sometime back in the late 1990s, I began to explore what many deem the hooky-spooky. Energies, Reiki, conscious reality creation, manifestation, positivity, and general mindful self-awareness.
Through all of that, I started to really get to know myself better. I saw both who I was and who I desired to be. To that end, I made more conscious decisions and choices, then worked to alter my attitude and approach to better control the things that I could.
There were a lot of fits and starts, half-baked attempts, failures, challenges, successes, frustrations, thoughts, feelings, actions, and intentions. Particularly in the last 10 years, I’ve really worked to be the most ideal me that I could be.
And yet — there is still a lot of lack, doubt, sense of insufficiency, and other negatives in my head and heart. Keeping my eye turned towards the positive end of the flexible cylinder between positive and negative isn’t easy.
On further analysis, I can see that it always comes down to the same problem. I am my own greatest obstacle.
