Is Comfort and Familiarity I’m Not Being Mindful of Sabotaging Me?

Despite working to change, comfort and familiarity are holding me back.

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As I took my morning walk today, I was talking to myself. I do that sometimes. The topic? Why do I keep repeating the same things over and over and over again?

After many looping questions to myself, I came up with an answer. I am comfortable with this because it’s familiar.

Here’s the thing — just because it’s full of comfort and familiarity — that doesn’t mean I like it. Or even desire for it to stay this way.

Yet subconsciously — I do. There is no other explanation here. If I didn’t feel a degree of comfort and familiarity in my life — why would I stay here?

My here and now

Here, as I define it, includes a whole bunch of negative mindsets and ideas about myself that I keep “working on.” Again, and again, and again — the same shit, different day.

Looking back on my old journals — I see some good and positive changes. Overall, I am a far more optimistic and positive person than I’ve ever been before. For the most part, I’m happy with my life as it is.

But there are things I desire to change. And those things never change.

What does that mean? It means that I am constantly facing the same challenges again and again. Because of this, I keep empowering them — and consciously recreating them.

I know this. Frequently, I write it, say it, explain it. Yet still — I don’t think I truly believe it.

Consciousness creates reality. I know this from experience.

So long as I keep focusing on needing to change these things — they always need to be changed.

Thus, my here and now remains in this ongoing limbo. And it involves the same bullshit time and again.

· Lose weight

· Make more money

· Prove you’re really a writer

I know full-well that focusing on the specific matters in the way that I do is keeping them in limbo.