Is Comfort and Familiarity I’m Not Being Mindful of Sabotaging Me?
Despite working to change, comfort and familiarity are holding me back.
As I took my morning walk today, I was talking to myself. I do that sometimes. The topic? Why do I keep repeating the same things over and over and over again?
After many looping questions to myself, I came up with an answer. I am comfortable with this because it’s familiar.
Here’s the thing — just because it’s full of comfort and familiarity — that doesn’t mean I like it. Or even desire for it to stay this way.
Yet subconsciously — I do. There is no other explanation here. If I didn’t feel a degree of comfort and familiarity in my life — why would I stay here?
My here and now
Here, as I define it, includes a whole bunch of negative mindsets and ideas about myself that I keep “working on.” Again, and again, and again — the same shit, different day.
Looking back on my old journals — I see some good and positive changes. Overall, I am a far more optimistic and positive person than I’ve ever been before. For the most part, I’m happy with my life as it is.
