Nobody Gets Me — And That’s Okay
Overcoming the desire for people to “get” me is ongoing.
I’ve spent a lot of my life trying to make an impression on people.
Some of those people are or have been close to me. Family, friends, coworkers, etc. Others have been far more removed. You might be among them.
Like most teenagers, I worked hard to “fit in” to this group or that. Mind you, I was never a popular kid — I was (and still am) a geek. Dork. Nerd. Take your pick. But in the circles that I traveled within — I worked hard for everyone to get me.
While many people stop trying so hard for people to “get” them after High School and college — I didn’t. I still tried in various ways to fit in and work to make people understand me and my ways.
Why? My single, greatest underlying fear has been abandonment. Almost certainly this comes from my parents’ divorce when I was 5. All my fears of failure, success, and everything else come back to abandonment.
I am not pointing fingers at my mom or dad — they did not abandon me, per se. But emotional detachment on my part went unnoticed because of them working on their lives at the time. And I didn’t figure this out for almost 30 years.
