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What Holds You Back?
The answer for me — and this might look familiar to you — is me.
This is a question that I have analyzed again and again. I will be working on something or other to improve my life, put myself where I ultimately desire to be — and not quite get there.
Something comes up, I get distracted, something shifts, or an unexpected happening happens. Yet the same end result occurs — I get held back.
I know that I am not the only one who deals with this. So the question I am asking of myself, and you in the process, is what holds you back?
That which holds ME back
Frequently, I believe what holds me back is my fear.
The one greatest fear I have in my life is the fear of abandonment. Deep down, I fear that if I succeed OR if I fail, I will be abandoned by those I care about.
As such, if I began to get close to succeeding OR to failing, I would tend to sabotage myself. Self-sabotage takes all sorts of interesting forms for me.
When it came to relationships, for example, if it started to look too good, out of fear of it succeeding or failing I would sabotage it by ending it, cheating, or allowing distraction to cause my partner to end it themselves.
