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What If You say “F*@k It” and Release Something You’re Holding In?
Sometimes release is necessary to clear your mind, heart, and soul.
I have a lot of things going on in my head right now that are negatively impacting my life. They are making me feel small, disempowered, irked, flustered, and other sometimes conflicting adjectives I could apply.
I strive to act regularly so that I don’t wind up holding back and holding things in. I learned a long time ago that holding stuff in leads to a lot of different unpleasantness. That makes me cranky, irritable, introspective, and negative.
For someone who seeks to be optimistic — and generally is — I have a wide pessimistic streak. I used to refer to myself as a cynical optimist (though really, it’s more skepticism than cynicism). It’s my desire to be optimistic — but I also see that the reality of the situation at hand sometimes makes that challenging.
I’ve used journaling, meditation, and other distractions to release things I hold in. That can be extremely helpful and positive.
But sometimes that’s not enough. Why? I think maybe because it feels like I am still partially holding it too close to myself. Sure, it gets out of my head — but did I really release it?
