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What Qualifies You?
Maybe nobody is asking this of me, but I sometimes ponder who I am to share my ideas.
Sometimes I worry about sharing my thoughts.
Why? Because I still am too concerned about how other people think of me. On the other side of the same coin, I am also concerned with my own authority in regard to the things I expound upon.
How come I care what other people think of me?
It is my belief that this is from very old issues stemming back to my childhood and abandonment fears. I am in no way blaming my parents or anyone else for this because it’s on me to get over myself already. Extenuating circumstances may have gotten me to this place, but I’m the one who can get me out of it.
In practicing mindfulness, I have been doing regular mediation. When I meditate, the stillness helps me to connect with my innermost, ancient beliefs.
Like pretty much everyone, I began to form the beliefs about who I am as a child. These were influenced by my experiences, education, upbringing, and observation of the people around me.
Many of these are deeply rooted and seldom obvious. Except, once in a while, they creep up and remind you that they are there; though this is almost always rather sideways.
