Sometimes I worry about sharing my thoughts.
Why? Because I still am too concerned about how other people think of me. On the other side of the same coin, I am also concerned with my own authority in regard to the things I expound upon.
How come I care what other people think of me?
It is my belief that this is from very old issues stemming back to my childhood and abandonment fears. I am in no way blaming my parents or anyone else for this because it’s on me to get over myself already. Extenuating circumstances may have gotten me to this place, but I’m the one who can get me out of it.
In practicing mindfulness, I have been doing regular mediation. When I meditate, the stillness helps me to connect with my innermost, ancient beliefs.
Like pretty much everyone, I began to form the beliefs about who I am as a child. These were influenced by my experiences, education, upbringing, and observation of the people around me.
Many of these are deeply rooted and seldom obvious. Except, once in a while, they creep up and remind you that they are there; though this is almost always rather sideways.
I was a lonely kid. I played alone a lot for all sorts of reasons. I was tolerated by other kids in the neighborhood at best, as far as I can recall. When I found a group that accepted me, it caused me to crave that going forward.
As I get older and better at looking back with no nostalgia, I see without judgment ways I’ve continued to do this well into adulthood. Even now, I still feel the twinge of concern that I will be accepted.
I believe that I have learned a lot of good and useful things about mindfulness, conscious reality creation, and positivity that are worth being shared. So my thoughts get shared here.
You may not agree with me entirely, or even at all — but I still push forward, accepting that how you think of me personally is not all that important in the grand scheme of things.
How am I concerned with my own authority in regard to the things I expound?
When it comes to mindfulness, conscious reality creation, and positivity, the education I have on these topics is entirely experiential. I have no formal education in human behavior, medicine, psychology, philosophy, or sociology. No titles, degrees, or certifications in coaching or education.
There are a plethora of writers, speakers, gurus, and pseudoscientists that do similar. Many question not only the validity of what they peddle, but of their so-called expertise, and in some cases the experience they claim to have.
Further, some of them take rather far-out approaches. Technical mumbo-jumbo or hippy-crunchy new ageisms are sold for big money with all sorts of promises for wealth, prosperity, health, and happiness.
My personal concern is that my lack of education and basis on nothing but experience and empirical evidence disqualifies me from being any sort of authority on these matters. Am I no better than some of the hucksters out there, but not making the money they are?
Am I qualified to share my ideas without the formal education? That is the question that concerns me. From where do I derive any authority or expertise to be able to share and sell my approach?
The truth is that my concerns about my authority in regard to the things I expound upon are directly tied to my concern about what people think of me.
What is this? Let me share one of my favorite scenes from Mel Brooks’ History of the World Part I:
“Dole Office Clerk: Occupation?
Comicus: Stand-up philosopher.
Dole Office Clerk: What?
Comicus: Stand-up philosopher. I coalesce the vapors of human experience into a viable and meaningful comprehension.
Dole Office Clerk: Oh, a *bullshit* artist!”
I call myself a 21st-century philosopher. My concerns both in regards to what people think of me and my own qualifications to share my ideas are whether that actually makes me just a bullshit artist.
I have some very practically minded friends who consider some of my philosophies to be bullshit. If they don’t call out my thought process, they call out the ideas shared by the self-help and inspirational writers, speakers, and gurus I have studied as bullshit artists.
Does this actually matter? No. What other people think about my ideas that I share don’t really matter in the long run because they are not me. I’m the only one inside my head, so it’s entirely up to me to be myself.
I believe in the power of positivity. Mindfulness gets me in touch with myself so I can be the best me that I desire to be. Consciousness creates reality, and I have made this work on multiple occasions. Applying positivity and mindfulness to it manifests my aspirations.
Be true to your thoughts
Everyone in their own way is looking for answers. We are all seeking out the answer to the question of life, the Universe, and everything — despite the fact that the question is obscured. You may turn to friends, family, political leaders, business leaders, religion, self-help and inspirational gurus, doctors, psychologists, or some combination of these to find your answers.
I believe that my experience in looking for my answers can help you to find yours. My approach doesn’t require a major leap of faith, making any huge purchases, giving away things, or anything beyond working inside your own head. You are capable of mindfulness and getting influence and control over your thoughts and feelings. Positivity is a choice that you can make to raise your energetic frequency to draw better things to you. You have the power to combine your mindfulness with your actions to consciously create reality.
My experience is life experience, and while unique to me, it is probably not too terribly dissimilar to yours in many ways. It is recognition of this that qualifies me to share my thoughts. That is what makes me an authority in regard to the things I expound upon.