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Why Is It Frequently Hardest to Prove Myself to Myself?
Yet the only person I must prove myself to is myself.
I do nothing to intentionally impress other people. But that’s not always been the case.
When I was younger, I had a far, far deeper need for validation. I was frequently striving to prove to myself, that I was worthy, and that I was doing a better-than-adequate job at anything I was working on.
Regularly I would brag about what I was doing and what I had done, showing off my talents and abilities, and frequently went out of my way to prove myself to anyone and everyone that I could.
That was a long time ago. In time, I learned that I didn’t desire to be that person. I could be enough for myself.
Along the way, I became better about keeping more of myself to myself. Why? Because I had nothing to prove to anyone. I would do what I would do to the best of my ability. I was working to be the best me that I could be.
This is, unsurprisingly, a work in progress. I still slip sometimes and want validation from others as proof I’m doing well at what I’m doing,
Sometimes, my desire to sell more books and get more readers to my blog feels like it’s still me trying to prove myself. It’s hard not to feel that way when…
