Why Won’t the Annoying Brain Weasels in My Head Shut Up?
Do you have chittering brain weasels messing with you?
Confession time. While I can put on an excellent façade of confidence and self-assurance — I am in an ongoing war with self-doubt, my self-worth, and the like.
This is a war I’ve been fighting all my life. Though I win many of the battles of this war — I know that it has no end in sight.
Most of the time, this is a cold war. Lots of posturing, threats, and various BS. But then, sometimes, skirmishes occur. Like whenever I push to put out a book, share a blog, do something outside of my comfort zone, and so on.
What do these skirmishes look like? Action on my part versus resistance from my self-doubt, lower self-worth, and self-sabotage. When action occurs, it moves from a cold war to a hot war.
For all the time where I am acting on things, there are lots and lots and lots of times where I am just thinking. Or between such definite action. Such things include doing a project like writing before publishing, background work for my job, homework for my coach, and so on. Relatively speaking, this is action — but it’s more passive, like a sonar open and detecting but not pinging actively.
And that’s when they dig their claws and teeth into me. The bloody brain weasels. Small, pernicious, negative, sometimes downright unpleasant thoughts and feelings.
What in the hell are brain weasels?
I’ve written about this topic before. More than once. I’ve referred to them by other names, such as squirrels in the brain, doubts, saboteurs, and the like.
Whatever you choose to call them, they are those tiny voices that crop up from time to time that magnify subconscious doubts, uncertainty, concerns, and the like.
Some writer you are — you have published all those books and you still don’t make enough to cover what you spent on editing/cover art. Keep doing what you’re doing — how long until your wife is disappointed in you? Maybe they’re right — you can’t do this. You love that definition of insanity, don’t you? How long until they realize you’re not any good at this and replace you?